Tuesday, May 15, 2012


Haha. I just love to spell it that way :). Humor about this situation  diet is the only thing getting me by these days.

So I thought that I'd take a moment and tell you what I'm doing, how I'm doing it and how I feel about it (although I'm pretty sure that if you are smart enough to be reading this then you already know exactly what my attitude towards dieting is).

First things first, I am doing what I like to call a Combo-diet. I have taken several dieting plans and meshed them into one that I think will work the best for me and my life-style. In a nut shell it is Slim Fast drinks, Lean Cuisine and Smart Ones frozen meals, and very sensibly cooked dinners and salads added here and there. With what precious little time I have right now the last thing I want to worry about it cooking a lot. I find things sooo much easier if I can just pop a top of a nutrition drink in the morning, warm up a frozen meal at lunch and dinner time and add in just a fresh salad to go along with both. I adore that the calories are counted for me on everything! Anything that I can add to my day that is labeled "one less thing to worry about" is A-OK is my book. :)

It hasn't been too terrible. The first couple of day I just wanted to cry ya'll but then it got easier. I think that I was going through food withdrawal. How horrible is that?? Truth be told though, I think that I might have had a small food addiction. Once all that past though it been tolerable. I realized that I was eating out of boredom and habit a lot of the time. I've been trying hard to pin point those moments when I feel the need to eat (at not a regular meal or snack time) and ask myself why? What is going on right now that makes me stop what I'm doing and walk to the kitchen. Once I think about it I'm almost always able to walk back out and away from the food.

After Caroline and while I was pregnant with Griffin I pretty much just gave myself over to eating what ever the heck I wanted whenever I wanted it. Grief combined with worry for the future with Griffin was sometimes just too much and food was the easiest comfort. I felt like I also had a free pass to eat like crazy with Griffin. After my cerclage was placed they had pretty much said that I shouldn't be restricting anything food-wise because if Griffin were to come early they needed him to be as big as possible. With that free pass in hand I did exactly as the doctors said :). It wasn't until 34-35 weeks that they said "ok Hillary, you can put the eating breaks on now". :)

It's funny to talk about the cerclage now because I am one pound less now than what my weight was at the hospital that morning (18 weeks gestation). How sad is that? I have a 7 and a half month old and I'm still no where near where I want/need to be.

Other things worth mentioning (and for myself remembering) I'm doing this because I'm only 36 and my joints are aching, feet are hurting, and I suck some serious wind trying to carry little Griffin up and down the stairs. Grrr. I shouldn't be feeling any of those things until I'm in my 60's. I'd like to be happy, healthy, and fit enough to chase my kids for a very long time!!

So, if anyone sees me not blogging about weight loss again in the next couple of weeks, feel free to shoot me an email to ask if I'm still on the wagon or not. I'm going to need some serious support to keep me honest! :)


Tesha said...

Hillary it sounds like you are doing great! I have used the lean cuisine meals in the past and LOVE them, the fact that you know how many calories you are getting is awesome. Are you still nursing, I think you are. I have a really hard time losing significant weight while nursing. It is like my body holds onto the fat to feed the baby. When I stop nursing I will usually drop a lot of weight in a short time. I know this is not the case with everyone but it is for me :) I can totally understand emotional eating, I have done it my whole life. This is the first time I ever lost my appetite in crisis. Your doing great and it is worth it, you can do it!!!!!

Candance said...

I was the total opposite of Tesha-I dropped major pounds nursing. So many, that sometimes I wish I had something to nurse again. Not to keep. Like a wet nurse.

Totally loving your idea about asking yourself why you're walking into the kitchen. I need to do that. Thanks for the idea!

Dandelion Breeze said...

Happy to support you on your plan... and if this IVF doesn't work out, I'll be joining you on the weight loss path xoxo

Kacey said...

I do that too, walk into the kitchen and grab some just because I'm there. I usually grab something that isn't good for me! So I've started putting out fruit on the bench do its easy for me to grab something healthy. Good luck you can do it!

ccc said...

I am trying to lose weight too and it has been difficult I think because of my age--it used to be easier. Exercise is doing it--an elliptical machine and I feel healthier too because I was getting long winded while chasing after kids and now I don't.
I will root you on and you can root me on!

Katie said...

Sometimes just getting starting with a new habit is the hardest part. ; ) Way to go, girl!

Glad you're back!

Beth Ann said...

Oh girl... I sooooo feel your pain. I still have 10 lbs. of baby weight to go and it is like it is just STUCK on me forever! :( I also hate exercise and love food...which doesn't help. It is sooooo depressing...especially with summer approaching and all of the summer clothes. UGH! So.depressing.

You are a tough, strong woman though and I know you can do it! Hang in there! I need to ask myself that question before opening the fridge/pantry. I also need to drink more water. I hear that helps. Good luck!

The Momma said...

Girl is sounds to me like you are doing great. I agree about the DIEt part of dieting, man it is hard. But you are doing so great!! Keep it up!

The Anglin Family said...

I'm with ya friend;) I've been at it hard core! It's rough!!

Elizabeth said...

You can do this!! I've been there and I have had great success with these three tricks: 1) sneakers-to-pavement (get out and walk...or run if you can!), 2) make healthy food choices in smaller portions, 3) eliminate sugary drinks-eat it, don't drink it! I lost weight in my freshman year of college using this "method" (which really isn't a method but a lifestyle change) and maintained a BMI between 19-21 for ten years! I've done the same thing after 3 pregnancies and it works. If you get in the habit of making healthy food choices in smaller portions and also make a habit of exercise...you'll keep it off for life! Also, go as a family...go hike, run in the yard, play...make it fun! Good luck, you can do it!

Hannah Rose said...

I need to lose about 30 pounds in order to be in my top shape! ugh it's so hard. Cheering you on! :)

I found you from Tesha's link-up. What a precious family you have! I love your blog design. Caroline is one of my favorite girl names!!

I'd love to have you follow along on my blog as well.

Much love and hugs,
Hannah Rose

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