Saturday, January 21, 2012

One Year Ago Today...

One year ago today I my dreams came true! I can't believe how rich and full and changed my life has become in one short year.

It's pretty hard to see the second lines but if you click on the picture you can see them much better!

I remember the day and night of the 21st with such clarity. You can read my post from that day here! We had an awesome day as a family that day and then that night my curiosity got the better of me and I took a test :). I know that I've told and re-told the story several times here but I'll share again! I knew in my heart that I was testing waaaaay too early. Like 7 or 8 days before I even was set to miss my period. I knew the test specifically said only to do it 6 day before a missed period but I was soo incredibly impatient that I just couldn't wait another second. I felt in my heart that I WAS pregnant and I was dying to see proof of it!

On the first test that I took, the line was so crazy faint that I thought that my eyes might be playing tricks on me. I know you other ladies will agree with me... you stare at a test for so stinkin' long and your eyes start to focus on the control line and then you start to see double of everything... :)

I took the test into my closet to see if the light was any different in there and I still felt like that I could "maybe" see a line. I looked at the test in the kitchen light, the laundry room light, the living room light (in case there was any doubt in your head left, I AM THAT CRAZY LADY!). I was finally able to bug Bobby into really analyzing the test with me and he agreed that he too could maybe see a line forming!

I told myself 4000 times not to get my hopes up too much because a.) it was still really early and b.) we had suffered a miscarriage before. 

The next morning I jumped up at 5 am to test again (the second test in the picture :). Still positive and this time there was no doubt in my mind that there was a line! It wasn't super dark but then again I wasn't supposed to start for almost another week.

I, once again, needed to see something more concrete so I took the above test just minutes after the above one. I LOVED seeing that one word, "PREGNANT"! The joy that my sore, broken heart felt was soo unbelievable. It was literally like a balm to my soul.

Funnily enough, these were not the only two test I took :). A couple of weeks later my nerves got the better of me and I took some more. I have no idea why other than I still needed more reassurance.

I swear, I'm that lady that keeps HPT companies in business!

On a gross side note, I saved them all. I saved the 2 I took with Grady, 2 of the ones from Caroline, and now all of these with Griffin! One day, many years from now, my boys will be going through all their baby keepsakes, find these and be thoroughly grossed out :).

I still can't believe how far we've come in a year. I can't believe that there are 3 little boys riding in a row when I turn my head in my car. I can't believe that there are 3 bedrooms upstairs each filled with little men more precious than their weight in gold. I can't believe the noisy racket coming from the other room from the 3 of them as I type all of this :).


ccc said... are not a crazy lady, just a super blessed mama who wants to remember everything and keep all the mementos that made you happy. I have saved my tests too and the gross umbilical cords when they fall off--I am pretty sure my kids do not want those, but how can I throw them away???!!!

The Anglin Family said...

I'm pretty sure I helped you keep those HPT companies in business. So happy you have Griffin!! It's crazy to think what those two pink lines bring to fruition!!! I have saved all of my tests too. I put them in their baby books lol;))
Hope y'all are having a great weekend!

VivalaVida said...

You are definitely not crazy...I also took several tests and even had to take the one that said "pregnant." I had to read it to convince myself :) You are definitely a blessed Momma! What a wonderful year filled with so many blessings!!

The Mama said...

I think that I tested up until I went to the dr for my 8 week appt with both kids. I just couldn't believe it until I saw the u/s and saw the dr. I don't know why, I just needed reassurance. I took 2-3 at first, then occasionally I'd take another one. Talk about crazy! And yes, I too, saved 2-3 tests with each kid. They are labeled in my drawer. :) So no, my friend, I don't think you are crazy at all!!! :)

I'm so thankful that you have Griffin and he is your sweetie!!

Elisabeth Hirsch said...

Sooo sweet! I love this ;)

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